Darcy. I think it is that you are still struggling with the loss. You have to endure the days that you don’t feel like doing anything. The anger you feel might be because you never had a chance to say goodbye. Sometimes, real grief is when you lose someone and are unable to say goodbye. Sudden death can do that. I hope you slowly accept that you are who you are, and those who can’t accept that don’t deserve to be a part of your life. Thank you for writing this hard article. ❤